Drifting out to sea
On a tiny boat,
I’m all alone.
I journey to the edge of the Earth,
Where the sky meets the ocean
And swallows you whole.

Beside me sits a glass jar
Full of old memories and unkempt promises,
Written on small strips of paper.
I grab a handful
And toss them into the air.
The breeze carries them away,
And they fall onto the surface of the water.
They float away,
Never to be seen again.

I pull out a picture of you,
And press it to my lips.
My finger softly strokes your cheek
As my eyes fill up with tears.
I stare deep into your eyes for a moment
And I place it carefully back into jar,
Closing the lid tight.
I toss it into the water
And watch it sink to the depths of the ocean.

I’m letting go,
Of you,
Of the past.

The calm blue waves carry me away
Far into the sunset,
Where I start my new beginning,
Behind the sun.

I’ve spent eternity running from the blackness that fills the air,
The cold mist that rains down upon us,
And seeps into our pores.
It infects us,
Like a virus,
And eats away at our souls.

But, today,
I looked into the reflection of the calm pond,
And couldn’t find myself,
Just darkness.
I am the plague.

Today I lay in the thick grass,
Watching the world pass me by.
The soft yellow ocean in the sky
Ripples as the wind blows calmly.
The sun slowly sets
And I feel it’s warmth fading away.
I run after it,
To the edge of the Earth.

The world is ending today.

I chase after it.
I run as fast as I can through the tall grass,
But I can’t catch up to it.
The sky burns at the edge of the horizon,
Catching the world on fire.
I fall to my knees.

I’m left in the perpetual darkness.

We held hands
As we entered a new dimension,
Our lips pressed against one another.

We woke up
In a forest of cherry blossoms
Breathing
Fresh air
The blue sky painted in the background.
You smile at me
And disappear behind the trees.
I run after you
And grab you in my arms,
Caressing your small frame.
Your skin 
So radiant,
Like I’d never seen before.
A gust of wind blows through the trees,
And tiny white petals fall down 
Covering the grass,
Falling into your hair.
You look at me,
And your silver eyes
Shed a tear.
I wipe it away,
And kiss you softly,
As the world melts away.

We’re free now.

We walk together through the scorching desert.
Tired and thirsty. 
Lost.
You fall to your knees and collapse from the heat.

Your smooth black skin slowly melts,
Like liquid tar seeping into the cracks in the sand.
An hour passes and your body is reduced to a thick puddle.
I lay next to you 
And drink you in through my parched lips.

You saved me.

The red hot sky cools to a pale lavender as the blistering sun evaporates into the night.

I peel off chunks of charred skin from my feet as it burns like hot embers.
I cry out in pain.
I dip my feet into the black puddle next to me.
You soothe my aching body.
I close my eyes and drift off as cold sweat rolls off of my forehead.
I begin to sink inside you.
A force beneath the surface pulls me in further and further,
Constricting my legs,
Crushing my bones.
I try to crawl out,
But the ground around me starts to crumble.
You suck me in deeper until I’m up to my neck.
You tear my insides apart.
I can’t breathe.

Everything becomes a dark blur around me as you swallow me entirely.
All I see is a dim light in the distance,
But it grows nearer as the black abyss consumes me.
I squint my eyes as it gets closer
To keep from being blinded.
Just as it gets close enough to identify,
I faint.

And wake up safe in your arms.

I emerge from my cozy chrysalis,
After weeks of solitude,
Ready to fly,
With open wings.
Eager to explore this new world
And start over.
Ready to leave my old existence behind,
And transform into a beautiful butterfly.

I sit on the street,
Early in the morning.
Cars and people rush by
Quickly,
Ignoring their surroundings.
I’m invisible in this big world.
I see through them, as they walk by, like they’re transparent.
Their dark souls float past.
I look up for a brief moment,
And through the thick fog of the tainted souls that move past me,
I see you,
Standing there across the street.
Bright,
Like the moon peeking through the cloudy sky.
I’m drawn to you, like an insect to a bright fluorescent light.
But I don’t move.
Your energy flows through me, and I can’t breathe.
All I want is to be noticed by you.
For you to inhale me as I walk past you.
I pull myself off of the pavement,
And move towards you,
My heart pounding.
But you slowly walk away as I get closer.
By the time I make it to the other side, you’re gone.
Vanished.
I search around for you,
But the dark souls block out your light.
You’re gone.

You were never there.

When I died,
I entered a silent place.
An empty realm where pure white snow ceased to fall from the endless black sky.
The snowflakes illuminated the darkness.
They sparkled and gave off a faint light.

I walked barefoot, wearing nothing but a thin lace dress.
The freezing snow didn’t seem to bother me.
But my skin turned splotchy and purple.
I walked around aimlessly, searching for anything,
Until I saw something shiny at the bottom of the hill.
It looked like metal had melted over the snow.
I touched it,
And my finger disappeared beneath the surface.
It was liquid.
Thick, silver liquid.
It was warm.
I dipped my feet in it,
And when I pulled them out they were transparent, like glass.
I could see right through them.
I touched them and they were hard and smooth,
So was the finger I had dipped in.
I slowly walked into the liquid, submerging my entire body.
I held my breath and sank to the bottom.
I sat there with my eyes closed, waiting for something to happen.
My lungs didn’t beg for air.
I opened my mouth and nothing rushed inside me.
I slowly opened my eyelids and I could see.

I was somewhere new.

The warm tears burn my sun-blistered cheeks.
I stare at my repulsive reflection in the dirty mirror. 
I hate everything I am,
But I force myself to look in the mirror.

I want to end it all.
I want to paint the garden you’re getting married in with my blood.
I want to make you happy.

I walk up to the rooftop balcony and look down at the beautiful flowers below.
It’s so far down and my legs begin to quiver.
I’m afraid of heights.
Without thinking, I climb on top of the old wood railing that’s falling apart.
I close my eyes.

I focus on breathing.

Everything you’ve ever said to me runs through my head as I sway with the salty breeze, 
Back and forth over the edge of the rickety railing. 
I inhale the beach air.

I open my arms wide,
And let the wind engulf me.

My heart is beating so fast that I can’t breathe anymore.

I know that it’s over now. 
I’m unsure of what will happen after my body meets the ground,
But whatever happens, at least I won’t be in pain any longer.

I have to do this.

A final tear runs down my face,
And hits the ground,
Just as I jump to my death.

The wetness of your kiss
Still lingers on my lips.
You leave me on the bed,
Helpless,
Naked on the sweaty sheets.
My heart still races,
And I breathe heavily.
Thoughts of you run through my head.
I lick your sweet poison from my lips,
And savor the taste.
My body starts to ache;
I begin to bruise where you beat me.
I roll over and cry into my pillow,
Remembering what you just did to me.
You used me,
Again.
But I let you,
Because I need you.
I can’t live without you,
But your poison is slowly killing me…
And soon I’ll be gone.